I decided to visit the California State Bar homepage today. This is the website I will visit on Friday to retrieve my results. It is also home to former bar exam questions, answers and other State Bar information.
Today, for the first time since I sat for the February bar exam, I was ready to look at the February essay questions. I’ve avoided the website for months because I did not want to view the essay questions and subsequently send myself off into a panic as to whether I appropriately answered each one. But today, I looked. It wasn’t too bad. I can’t remember exactly what I wrote for each essay, so it was hard to evaluate myself.
I can’t say affirmatively either way whether I believe I passed or I failed the exam.
Thus, the worrier in me is preparing for the worst. I looked at my calendar this morning and I calculated that I will have nine weeks from next Tuesday until the July bar exam. By that point, I should have enough vacation time saved to take a week off from work for the test. We’ll scrap together some money to pay for another round. I’ll call my doctor and request a re-fill on my sleep meds (which fyi, are rarely used but I’m out nonetheless). And, I’ll just take the exam again. And again and again and again. I will not give up.
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I pray, pray, pray that you won’t need to go through it again! You are amazing!
*ehlan*
May 14th, 2008
You can keep on preparing, but I say you won’t need to!
gina
May 15th, 2008
Delinda, you’re going to pass. I’ll be thinking of you!
Lauren Blakley Kutz
May 15th, 2008
Thank you Lauren. Your words mean so much to me.
Delinda
May 16th, 2008
Hi Delinda, I’m a fellow BIer who came across your blog from your BI footer. I’m totally feeling you. I took the bar in February and am feeling absolutely sick today. Couldn’t sleep last night. All nervous now. Life after law school does kind of blow sometimes. I think you’re fabulous and my thoughts are with you.
rogue
May 16th, 2008
I’m joining the Delinda cheer squad- as one of your devoted fans, I am feeling confident that you have kicked this exam’s ass… now I just need to hear it from yourself!
Laura
May 16th, 2008